List of Confessions

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One,

You should try writing a love letter to yourself,

I have written one to myself,

it took me 17 years to complete it,

that's also how long it took

for me to decide

if I loved myself.

Two,

I believe that the heart is flat

in our minds,

that's why it is so easy to

rekindle a wound

and also why

everything is just a finger's distance from healing.

Three,

I forgot my own phone number

at a cafe coffee day counter,

she kept repeating

the first few numbers that I had uttered

without giving me space to think,

maybe we are all her

when it comes to counting our mistakes.

Four,

I have a thing for languages,

both for those I understand and those that I don't,

I would listen to hours and hours of urdu poetry

without knowing what it meant,

maybe that is also one kind of silence.

Five,

I have thought too often about

what I would name myself

if not for what I have been named,

everytime I think I might be close to an answer,

amma calls me by my name

so dearly

that I conclude that names aren't made up of letters but by voices that sing it.

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